Problems in School and Problems With Friends

Today was the first day for Summer Session 2 at UCD. The class that I am taking is a retake. Last quarter I didn't get a good grade in Organic Chemistry. People that took Organic Chemistry know what I mean. I am hoping that I will get a better grade in this class because this class is a prerequisite for all my other class. I feel that I am not going to succeed in life because of my education. I know that one grade can't change my whole life and that I should continue life with my head up. The problem is that I am a worry freak and I tend to over think my problems. Hopeful someday I will change this weird habit. As many of my friend said "You will do fine don't worry" I really do try to not worry. As all Asians know that your parent want you to be an over achiever but that is just hard to do in college. I feel sad sometimes about how I do in college but I am glad that I have friends to comfort me. I tend tell my problems to my 哥哥 and 老婆. Thanks for talking to me for all this time. After talking to you guys I feel good about myself. =)

The second thing that I have to talk about is the question: "What is a true friend?". Last week something really happened that change my feelings about friends. I know this friend for about 2 years but last Thursday all of my friends were chilling and this friend was in this hangout but he was getting a little drunk or tipsy. As result, he ended up saying some stuff that really hurt me. I thought for a moment think maybe it is the alcohol talking to me. There is a saying that alcohol brings out the truth. I still wonder what he said was true =(. I thought I was a great friend because when ever this friend had a problem I gave him my time to talk. Maybe I saw wrong but I don't want to see wrong though. For my whole life of having friends I never had this problem before. My sister and cousin had a talk with me last last week about friends. Ironically, who knew that it would have come bit me on my ass that fast. I get sad thinking that I had this friend for 2 years and in the end I get sometime that is just terrible. After two nights of this incident, my 哥哥 called me to tell me about something. I had no idea what was happening he just told me to check my facebook, then he asked me "Did (this friend) defriend you on facebook?" I look for a moment and found out that this friend indeed defriend me. Are you a true friend if you do that? This is the first time this happened to me and I fear this will happen to me again =(. The ironic part about this is that this friend is older than all of us but he seems to act like a child. I can truly say that I have three true friends and this is 哥哥, 老婆, and ah soh. This is a message to you guys: " Hope I will not lose you guys too because I will feel like I have lost a part of me"

我當你地我既家人啦!!!=)